Self-Assessment

Everything seems fuzzy lately. I am so confused and bewildered with my life that I don't really get what's going on. I constantly over-think. I worry about things that I cannot control.

For a time there, I thought I was good enough. I was told I was good at something. You know what? I am not. That's not true. I do not know what I am worth. That may be the reason people take me for granted as well. What I give out to the world reflects back. If I think I am not worthy? Why would they think that I am, right?



I like going to the gym, or a long drive. It makes me clear my mind's clutter a little. I have some few thoughts that I stumbled on, and I want them listed to make me remember them clearly and what I want for an outcome of my miserable life. Here goes;

• I am not as good as I think I am, especially in writing articles. Taking that test assessment made me realize that there are loopholes and that I still need to learn them. It made me wonder what I did during school. I listened to my teachers. I like literature, but I don't like structure. I responded poorly to sentence construction; the punctuations made me gave out that dazed look. (In short, I don't really get it.) All the way to college. If I could cheat my way out of it, so be it. BUT literature and linguistics, they're different. I love them. What am I going to do about it? Sulk or learn? I know what I am going to do. I am not going to beat myself into thinking that I am no good. I have to learn them, to be a master of that matter. I want to write better. I want to be better. If anybody tells you otherwise, prove them wrong. Don't tell it. DO IT!
• I don't feel appreciated enough. I don't know what to make of this, though. Should I stop pleasing people and just do what I do best? Being a bitch? You tell me. If you have a better suggestion, feel free to tell me. I am all ears.

This is all I am going to write for now. I can't think because I am hungry.